Nov
09

so its not really really a vacation, i have exams and then its a five day holiday with my cousins and i’m really looking forward to it, but i also have a sense that i’m leaving a lot behind..

i know its not a big long vacation i’ll be back in 2 weeks but for a first time in the longest time i can remember…… i’ll miss being here!!

i really dont know if i’m nervous bout my exams but i don wanna go… may be i don wanna face my exams may be i don wanna face the results, or may be all i want to do is sit here and never face the challenge thats coming my way

i really dont know what i’m afraid of… a new season and its challenges, questions i dont have answers to.. or i don know what but i do know for now…….

I’ll miss mumbai…. not so much as a place, but as my home my comfort zone!!

Nov
03

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Nov
02

Girl_with_BalloonsI am right now contemplating writing dis post or not. but i am and may be publish it to.

I’m frustrated with things around as though that was something new to report, but really, i am faced wit some real simple questions for which i obviously don get answers to?

if i had a wishing vand to turn back time i wud turn it around do things differently see myself differently but where do i go back to college, school, or birth?

i know i cant turn back time but i want to be able to give myself the best future, and i do believe God is working on me but for now………. i don want to answer questions, i don wanna think of reasons to my own questions……….and i don wanna  be left out… i don want to be alone.

Oct
15

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Sep
25

Psalm 91

1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”

9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-

10 then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.

I know you may have read this ps over and over again i did before every exam before every interview when i was scared or fearful but i just read tried memorizing it and what not, everytime i read this Ps i would feel secure and feel somewhat more stronger than i wud have been……. of course u wud say this is supposed to be the Ps of security.

A few days back some1 made me see this Ps in a totally dift way, here is David the man after God’s own heart saying that God is my fortress, Sheild…….. and so on but then he stops and says IF YOU, that is you and me, MAKE THE MOST HIGH YOUR DWELLING………………. of wait is did he just say ‘IF’ yeah there you go those two letters are quite heavy IF…… i have a choice, to make……… or not to make……..

thats when i realise i have a choice everytime i feel insecure, lonely and let down i have a choice to make………. to make God…. The MOST HIGH, who was David’s security whom he boasted so much about, my very own personal security.

this isnt just reading Ps 91 before every test that i have this is relying on some one everytime, its like a kid going to papa for food, clothing, shelter and it doesnt just end there kids go to papa to fight their fights to…….untill they are too big enuf to fight for themselves……..

but wait doesnt the bible say “for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it”

is it the same faith you and i need for God to fight our battles?? i’m sure it is God’s battle i’m just a solider doing my tiny miny part he is the warrior! who wins every battle infact has already won them for me.

i see……. therefore, believe…….. how bout you??

Jun
24

i just finished another round of exams and while waiting for my results i feel more lonley and bored than i’ve ever felt its not that i don have things to do i have a lot of books to read up and need a lot of time to practice and pray and even though i promise myself and God that i would spend time more productively i end up doing just the opposite.

i miss college….. and while running thru my old photographs i realised those days are never gonna come back and we’re never gonna be together in the same way even if we wanted to…….. but if there is a desire to be together and freak out the same way why cant it happen!!

anyways i miss you guys and all our trips to essel world!! i wish i could get the picts uploaded here or soon will!!

May
23

well thats a qt i’m tired of askiing myself and ummm………. God. Nothing seems to be working the right way, as though i knew whats was going to be the right way!! At times i feel i’m trying to reach what is not mine and ultimately twist Gods arms to give me whats not mine!! Arghhhhhh i don wanna do that but then there was this voice which i heard saying ’stay’ ‘its not your battle its mine’ well was that my intution or just me making up such stuff!!

i see ppl all around me my age settled and though i am happy for them i’m jealous for myself not someplace i would want to be. I so desperately want to be on one side of the whole game either win or loose…………..

i know God will show up but in what way…………… cause i no longer know what i want out of it??? or whats right whats wrong?? shud i stay or wait for another new begining!!!!

Apr
17

there are times when absence makes a lot of difference…………. even if being present does’nt add any value!!

Mar
20

i’ve decided to keep this blog alive and i’m hoping i manage to sustain it!!

Oct
17

It’s an interesting article by Yogesh Chhabria.


LATELY, I have been thinking a lot about the Lehman crisis. Spending money that they didn’t have and going beyond their means is one of the main reasons for their situation today. In fact thatli is the cause for the current economic crisis in the US.


When I see this entire happening, I can only remember the good old days. Then, karz was bad. People looked down upon those who took loans. Parents would not give their daughter’s hand in marriage to a man with loans.


But of course, the times have changed now. Everyone I know has a loan. The buzzword is EMI (equated monthly installment) . Today, you can buy everything on EMI – a house, a television, an i-Pod. In fact I know of someone who just bought a fancy BMW 3 series on EMI, instead of buying a cheaper car outright with cash. I mostly prefer to take public transport, but then I am an old man with old thoughts!


Anyway, coming back to what caused the crisis. Imagine having Rs 2 lakh in your bank account, no regular income, yet buying a house worth Rs 65 lakh, in the hope of selling it for a higher price. Even if the price of the house fell by just 5 per cent (that is Rs 3 lakh), you will go bankrupt.


This is what Lehman Brothers did; with around USD 20 billion they went and bought assets worth over USD 600 billion. Isn’t it suicidal and simply foolish?


I am sure things would have been different, had I been the head of Lehman brothers. But who wants an old conservative man like me to head a complex financial institution.


But there are a few lessons that we can learn:


1.Live a balanced life and avoid overspending.
2.Don’t buy things we don’t need.


3.Don’t buy Branded good’s.


4.Don’t buy excess Food, Cloths, Cosmetics, Footwear, electronics and Fashion accuracies
just think before you buy.


Tip: World still has a lot of growth ahead and the future holds immense opportunities for us. Let us make the most of it and save and invest it wisely instead of wasting our precious little on things we don’t need.


5.Try to balance life with work (No one is happy to work in their profession’s) .


6. Don’t stress out your self, after work try to do some extra activities like swimming, yoga, walking, running where you can divert your mind from stress.


A thumb rule: Health is more important than money.


7.Try to understand each other (Wife and Husband) in financial matter’s and help each
other.


Tip: As soon as you get your monthly salary, set aside a fixed amount, usually 35 per cent, for insurance, savings and investments. You can then spend the rest.


8. Not all loans are bad. Loans that are ‘need based’ (home loans, education loans) can always find a place in your finances against those that are largely ‘want based’ (Credit cards, personal loans, car loans).


9. Borrow only if repayment is financially comfortable.


A thumb rule: Keep EMIs within 35 to 45 per cent of your monthly income


In that respect, there is one American who I really respect – WARREN BUFFET. He has lived in the same ordinary house for over three decades, drives his own medium sized car and leads an extremely regular ‘middle class’ life. If that’s all it takes for the richest person on earth to be happy, why do all of us need to take extra stress just so that we can get things which aren’t even essential?

 

‘If I can help somebody as I pass along, if I can cheer somebody with a word or song, if I can show somebody that he’s traveling wrong, then my living shall not be in vain.’