Jun
24

i just finished another round of exams and while waiting for my results i feel more lonley and bored than i’ve ever felt its not that i don have things to do i have a lot of books to read up and need a lot of time to practice and pray and even though i promise myself and God that i would spend time more productively i end up doing just the opposite.

i miss college….. and while running thru my old photographs i realised those days are never gonna come back and we’re never gonna be together in the same way even if we wanted to…….. but if there is a desire to be together and freak out the same way why cant it happen!!

anyways i miss you guys and all our trips to essel world!! i wish i could get the picts uploaded here or soon will!!

May
23

well thats a qt i’m tired of askiing myself and ummm………. God. Nothing seems to be working the right way, as though i knew whats was going to be the right way!! At times i feel i’m trying to reach what is not mine and ultimately twist Gods arms to give me whats not mine!! Arghhhhhh i don wanna do that but then there was this voice which i heard saying ’stay’ ‘its not your battle its mine’ well was that my intution or just me making up such stuff!!

i see ppl all around me my age settled and though i am happy for them i’m jealous for myself not someplace i would want to be. I so desperately want to be on one side of the whole game either win or loose…………..

i know God will show up but in what way…………… cause i no longer know what i want out of it??? or whats right whats wrong?? shud i stay or wait for another new begining!!!!

Apr
17

there are times when absence makes a lot of difference…………. even if being present does’nt add any value!!

Mar
20

i’ve decided to keep this blog alive and i’m hoping i manage to sustain it!!

Oct
17

It’s an interesting article by Yogesh Chhabria.


LATELY, I have been thinking a lot about the Lehman crisis. Spending money that they didn’t have and going beyond their means is one of the main reasons for their situation today. In fact thatli is the cause for the current economic crisis in the US.


When I see this entire happening, I can only remember the good old days. Then, karz was bad. People looked down upon those who took loans. Parents would not give their daughter’s hand in marriage to a man with loans.


But of course, the times have changed now. Everyone I know has a loan. The buzzword is EMI (equated monthly installment) . Today, you can buy everything on EMI – a house, a television, an i-Pod. In fact I know of someone who just bought a fancy BMW 3 series on EMI, instead of buying a cheaper car outright with cash. I mostly prefer to take public transport, but then I am an old man with old thoughts!


Anyway, coming back to what caused the crisis. Imagine having Rs 2 lakh in your bank account, no regular income, yet buying a house worth Rs 65 lakh, in the hope of selling it for a higher price. Even if the price of the house fell by just 5 per cent (that is Rs 3 lakh), you will go bankrupt.


This is what Lehman Brothers did; with around USD 20 billion they went and bought assets worth over USD 600 billion. Isn’t it suicidal and simply foolish?


I am sure things would have been different, had I been the head of Lehman brothers. But who wants an old conservative man like me to head a complex financial institution.


But there are a few lessons that we can learn:


1.Live a balanced life and avoid overspending.
2.Don’t buy things we don’t need.


3.Don’t buy Branded good’s.


4.Don’t buy excess Food, Cloths, Cosmetics, Footwear, electronics and Fashion accuracies
just think before you buy.


Tip: World still has a lot of growth ahead and the future holds immense opportunities for us. Let us make the most of it and save and invest it wisely instead of wasting our precious little on things we don’t need.


5.Try to balance life with work (No one is happy to work in their profession’s) .


6. Don’t stress out your self, after work try to do some extra activities like swimming, yoga, walking, running where you can divert your mind from stress.


A thumb rule: Health is more important than money.


7.Try to understand each other (Wife and Husband) in financial matter’s and help each
other.


Tip: As soon as you get your monthly salary, set aside a fixed amount, usually 35 per cent, for insurance, savings and investments. You can then spend the rest.


8. Not all loans are bad. Loans that are ‘need based’ (home loans, education loans) can always find a place in your finances against those that are largely ‘want based’ (Credit cards, personal loans, car loans).


9. Borrow only if repayment is financially comfortable.


A thumb rule: Keep EMIs within 35 to 45 per cent of your monthly income


In that respect, there is one American who I really respect – WARREN BUFFET. He has lived in the same ordinary house for over three decades, drives his own medium sized car and leads an extremely regular ‘middle class’ life. If that’s all it takes for the richest person on earth to be happy, why do all of us need to take extra stress just so that we can get things which aren’t even essential?

 

‘If I can help somebody as I pass along, if I can cheer somebody with a word or song, if I can show somebody that he’s traveling wrong, then my living shall not be in vain.’

Oct
14

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Oct
13

eight years back when i got saved everything was so nice and so new i knew i had to cut somethings out but i thought things changed just like that i wouldnt have desires!! i wouldnt ever want to go back!! what was i thinking!!

Here i am so much of me has changed yet so much of me just the same i wished it werent like this, i wish i dint have to battle it out in my mind everytime, i wish i knew what to speak, how to behave, i wish i knew how to love more than what i can get, but most of all i wish i just became like jesus in a twinkling bit…..

but i know it takes time, i know things around don change i change things around, i am the salt the food doesnt make the salt tastier but the salt does, either i become saltier or i loose it. It depends how much i’m ready to give up or how much i’m ready to give in

Nothing is impossible, its just never easy……….. but its better this way – ‘not in the flash of an eye’

Oct
01

a big hello…… this post comes out of a desperate need to keep my blog alive after days of thinking what do i write here i decided to give u an unwanted update bout myself!!

Keith (my nephew) is here, he still cant get words right yet he calls me ’to mini’, every1s been trying hard to teach him correct pronounciation so my name has come to ‘talomini’, i’m not too fond of him learning my right name so soon and keep him engaged in a debate btw the two!

On a serious note i discovered that there is a whole bunch of people who’s only job is to be watching you and if you claim to love God its JUDGEMENT before death in short Grace is something which cannot be expected but it still is the character of God!!

Plans to Singapore seems to be working out and this time i would be celebrating my birthday in another country (the first of all) and in one of the most blessed ways I Love God and i love my dad can’t ask for more on my b’day or can i??

so here u are an unwanted update bout me!!

Jul
23

this post comes out after a long long time here it goes…..

whats been happening is something even i’ve been trying to figure out myself, my results are out and like every other time i havent cleared!! after battling it out i’ve decided to give another try, i have no idea how much i want it for myself……….. not because, i’m desperate, but because i’ve lost the enthusiasm! Just hoping i don give up on the plans God has for me!

Apart from studies nothing else seems to be working out the way i’ve thought it would, i’ve been thinking extremes and i’m somewhere in between all of it!

The best i can do is wait, watch and enjoy God!

Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You’ll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You’re making me
Somewhere in the middle, You’ll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You’ll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You’re by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I’m caught in the middle

- Casting Crowns.

Jun
05

what i learnt today: waiting for a promise, is not a walk in the garden its rather a walk on thorns……. and its easy to give up ur dream its easy to give up on the word God has given you…….. it may seem okay today it may cause a little less hurt today but some day when i look back i’ll regret giving up just because it hurts today.

suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us.

Romans 5: 3 – 5

Its your word that takes me through
brings back a smile on my face
Returns every wasted day,
Even though i fall Even if i stumble
your love it picks me up
In anxiousness and confusions
your word gives me hope
In darkness gives me light
I may not fully understand
what they all mean
but one thing i learn
is to obey Your Soverignity!!