HERE!!!!……………. WHY?

well thats a qt i’m tired of askiing myself and ummm………. God. Nothing seems to be working the right way, as though i knew whats was going to be the right way!! At times i feel i’m trying to reach what is not mine and ultimately twist Gods arms to give me whats not mine!! Arghhhhhh i don wanna do that but then there was this voice which i heard saying ’stay’ ‘its not your battle its mine’ well was that my intution or just me making up such stuff!!

i see ppl all around me my age settled and though i am happy for them i’m jealous for myself not someplace i would want to be. I so desperately want to be on one side of the whole game either win or loose…………..

i know God will show up but in what way…………… cause i no longer know what i want out of it??? or whats right whats wrong?? shud i stay or wait for another new begining!!!!